just remembering...

OK, well, I was thinking about this the other day, and thought I would share it with y'all....I might have told a couple people when it happened, not sure, but anyway, it has been on my mind....

I remember the minute the paramedic told me that Michael was gone, and from that very second I started thinking, if I could only hear him say I love you, one more time, if he could only tell me one more time....that's all i could think about and I even prayed, Dear God, please let him tell me one more time.  Well in our house on my side of the closet, there is a shelf above my clothes, I NEVER touch anything on this shelf, NEVER, because there isn't anything on it that I need, so after a couple of days of asking God to please let me know that Michael knew how much I loved him and let me know that he loved me, I opened the closet door for something, and there on the floor was a piece of paper.....It was a letter Michael had written to Gilbert and me last year. Now I know it wasn't there before, because it was right where I put my shoes and i would have seen it. 

Anyway, in the letter he was telling us how much he loved us both and h ow he had been struggling and he knew that everything was gonna be ok......

All I could do was cry because that letter just showed up, out of nowhere, my prayers had been answered.

I guess he has his little ways of letting us know he is with us. 

I know this pain will never go away, I'm not even sure if it will ease.  I miss my son so much and still don't understand, but I know he is up there watching over us now.....

So I just wanted to share that with y'all

I love you, Mikey, See You When I See You.......