Well, most of you know, that Michael had a liver transplant on September 4, 2002, and he and I used to always remember it on the day and we would talk about it. We would NEVER forget, so why did i suddenly realize the other day, that i had forgotten the date that has always been so important to me...I felt so guilty, and it broke my heart. I didn't mean to forget, I just wish i knew why I did.
I still miss Mikey more than ever, and I still break down and cry sometimes, and some days its an all day thing.....this is probably the most hurtful and heartbreaking thing I have ever had to try to survive, and not sure how much longer I can, all I can do is take it one day at a time....and it's something I hope anyone I know, never has to go through it......
Now on another note, I was sitting here thinking about when we were still living in Texas, before we ever moved out here to New Mexico, we were planting a garden one year, and we were discussing all the things we were going to plant, and Mikey came up to me and asked me if we could plant some bananas, lol, I told him yes....so after a few weeks of him asking me how they were doing, I snuck outside and buried some in the garden, I let him go and dig them up, he was so happy that we had grown bananas, lol, I NEVER told him what I had done, it's just another one of my special little memories that I will hold dear to my heart forever.
I don't know if anyone enjoys reading this, but it sure does help me to write it....and even if one person enjoys it, then I am thankful........
So I love you Mikey, and I will See You When I See You, and I will never stop loving or missing you my baby boy......
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